The Sky Did Not Choose

I sat outside
while lightning flickered through the clouds
in soft silver veins,
the kind that never touch the ground
but still make the whole sky feel alive.

The air was warm from the day,
but the wind had started turning cool,
moving through the fields and against my skin
like the earth itself was exhaling.

Above the storm,
the stars stayed bright.
Steady. Unmoving.

And below them
the clouds kept flashing with distant power,
like some ancient battle was unfolding
just beyond the horizon.

It should have felt violent.
Instead, it felt holy.

As if heaven itself could hold
both chaos and peace
at the same time.

I could not stop looking at it —
the stars beside the storm,
the beauty beside the ruin,
the quiet beside the power.

Because the stars did not disappear for the lightning.
The sky did not choose between wonder and ruin.
It carried both.
It survived both.

And sitting there beneath it,
with the wind in my hair
and the storm glowing softly against the dark,
I think some part of me wanted to believe
that maybe I could too.

I Don’t Want To Be A Chore:

-This playlist is for the feeling of trying to be easy to love. For holding your words back, making your hurt smaller, pretending you don’t need as much as you do, just so no one feels like staying with you is work. It’s for the quiet fear that one day someone will realize loving you takes effort, and decide they’re too tired to keep trying. I don’t want to be a chore. I just want to be something someone keeps choosing without thinking about why.

•Wings by Birdy
•Porch Light by Noah Kahan
•You and Me by Cameron Whitcomb
•Crooked the Road by Mon Rovia
•Refuge by Dermot Kennedy
•Steady by Bella Kay
•Muscle Memory by Isabella Contadini
•Anyone’s Dream by bennie
•Sailor Song by Gigi Perez
•David by Lorde
•Dirty Liar by Ike Dweck
•You Can’t Follow by Alice Rose Lyn
•Youth by Daughter
•If I Get High by Nothing But Thieves
•Meet You at the Graveyard by Cleffy
•Empty (Ballad Version) by Brook Lynn
•Drown by Emilie Su
•Already Gone by Sleeping At Last
•Someone To Stay by Vancouver Sleep Clinic
•Let Me Follow by Son Lux